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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Life

I’m here

Your not

I remembered

You forgot

Sometimes life can work these ways

Sometimes life makes it miserable some days

Sometimes when I get mad I break things and I cry

Sometimes I roll myself up in a ball and wish that I could die

Life can be evil and life can be mean

Life can be good and cause a pleasant scene

Life can be rewarding

Or it can be discouraging at times

You can be blamed for other people’s crimes

It can make you eat a lot and become really fat

Or shave off all your hair, so you have to wear a hat

No matter what, life is life

And I would never want to end it, with the blade of a knife

Monday, January 17, 2005

I Want To Know

I hear you
But when I turn around you're not there
Where have you gone
This is so unfair
What are you doing to me
Why are you fucking with my head
You're messing with my mind
And making me with that I was dead
Why, I scream out loud
I want a fuck'n answer
But nothing fills this room but silence
And I'm left wondering
Why would you cause me to commit such self-voilence

Heart Breaker

There’s no easy way to say goodbye

It always seems to make me cry

I hate having to let go

It’s so hard you know

I want you to stay here

I want you to stay near

But if you must go

Than go my dear

Leave ask quietly as you can

You’re such a heart breaker, like Peter Pan

Friday, January 14, 2005

Hallow

I feel hallow inside

Like there’s nothing left

I feel hallow inside when I go to take my last breath

Every time you look at me

It’s like we where never meant to be

So that’s why I’m gone

And out the door

I’m sorry

But I couldn’t take it anymore

Went in with everything

Came out all stripped down

When is it my turn

I want my rebound

I’m much happier

Now that you’re gone

I’m glad that your not here

Cause we’re better off done

You really must not get it

That you make me so depressed

I can’t be around you

Or I’ll end up undressed

You are so forcing

And I hate you

You are really a bitch

I hope I never see you

Fuck off

You’re like an itch

Fuck You

I’ve been waiting for so long

And you don’t care one bit

Seems like you’ve always been gone

And you don’t give a shit

When will you never be wrong

Maybe after your done having a fit

You can keep my sexy laced thong

I hope you have fun playing with it

I’ll be in the corner smoking from a bong

While you pretend that you are feel some ugly ass girl’s tit

You’re the reason for this song

And I hope you get hit

Dream Girl

How can you manage to move on with out me

It’s just too hard for me to do

I close my eyes and suddenly see you
Your in my dreams

Your in my head

I see you every time I go to bed
I make believe
That you are here
It helps me move on

And takes away my fear

It's the only way
To live without you

My skies are gray

And it likes to rain
I dance in it

To cure the pain
At night I hope

That I will see you again

And things will be just like back then
But at anytime you could go

And once again I’d be alone
Please stay forever

And never fade away
I need you in my life

I need you here today

Diary-Lyrics

Don’t read my diary without permission

Not even under one condition

If you had one I wouldn’t read yours

Besides it would be filled with tons of bores

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

If you every dare to try

I’ll hurt you really bad

I’ll make you cry

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Don’t go near it

Don’t even try

Yeah

Don’t go near it

Don’t even try

I’ll hurt you really bad

I’ll make you cry

Do go

Near it

Don’t

Even try

Yeah

Don’t you even try

I’ll hurt you really bad

I’ll make you cry

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Oh Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Boy Toy

You pretended that you wanted me

For what is inside
And you slipped your way through

And discovered

A thing I tried to hide

You’ll find that there’s no way out

And you’re trapped inside my world

Now your one of my toys

And you’re spinning around

Being forced to eat what others have hurled

Because….


You’re my first

That means your forever

You’re my first

Than means that I “need” us together

Even though what I meant to you was shit

I’m gonna change you

And I’m convinced that I’m gonna accomplish it

This is a promise

Something you could never keep

This is a Promise

Because of all the days and nights you made me weep
You laid me down and fucked me dry

You fucked me over

And now you must die

I’m watching everything you do

I’m taping your every single little move

Cause you’re my little boy toy

And you have to move to my groove

You’re my little creature

Chained up to the wall

You’re my little puppet

And I control it all

When I say make it harder

Make it harder

When I say make it faster

Make it faster

Cause baby, baby, baby, you made my world one disaster

Beautiful

To me you are perfect

There are no mistakes

And to be with you I’d do whatever it takes

You’re so beautiful

And so precious

I thank god you’re mine

But you are so far away

And that seems unkind

It makes my heart ache

And it makes my soul cry

For when I’m without you

I think I could die

But then I just think of my beautiful you

And then all my dreams seem to come true

Autobiography

I don’t care if it’s not right
My bark may be louder than my bite
I've lived for years without a life
I feel like an old rundown housewife
There’s a soul somewhere, trapped inside
It just likes to try to hide
I need a hand
I need a friend
I don’t want this to be the end
I've got a roof over my head
And a really comfortable bed
I'd rather be alone, with me instead
Than will him, you know who I’m talking about
My second home is close yet far
To get there I have to go in a car
I might look different
I might have changed
But it’s not my fault
It’s because my whole life was rearranged
Nobody even knows I’m me
But oh well, who cares
I like being a mystery

Another Day Goes By

Another day goes by
And yesterday just disappears with the past
I'm searching for a positive change in life
But I’m too lazy to make one happen
Too caught up in this disease
And while I waste my time thinking
Another day goes by
Why does it have to be now
Why is today, today
I wish it was the future and the past at the same time
I want to go back to when you where here
And ahead to see if you are there
I just hope you are
So I can relax in the present

All Cause Of You

If you open up your eyes

Maybe then you’ll realize that you don’t make me happy anymore

Maybe you should open up your mind

Maybe then you’ll realize

That I’ve been playin on you

You’ve been makin me feel

Somethin that’s so real

I wish it just wasn’t true

It’s all cause of you

It’s all cause of you

Now I don’t know what to do

It’s all cause of you

It’s all cause of you

Now it’s about time that you knew

I just couldn’t take it anymore

So I ran right for the door

And that’s how I ended up here

You where driving me crazy

You where making me insane

You where being an asswhole

You where being such a pain

So I had to set it straight

I had to turn around my fate

I had to leave you

We had never even gone on a date

So stop calling my home

And stop calling my cell

I’m sorry if I’m making your life hell

But you kinda ruined mine

So I’m laughing in your face

(hahaha)

You’re a big disgrace

It’s all cause of you

It’s all cause of you

Now I don’t know what to do

It’s all cause of you

It’s all cause of you

It’s about time that you knew

The truth is that

We’re through

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Will You (Be The One)

As you leave will you be the one to say good-byes?
As you leave will you be the one to wipe my eyes?
Your foot is out the door, and I can't stop you.
Cause your almost gone.
But tell me now, will you be the one?
Will you come back?
You're always saying that you won't.
I hope that's a lie.
Cause it would hurt me if you don't.
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
Is this what you end up with when you stop trying to succeed.
As you go, just remember me.
And don't forget, cause that could never be.
I will miss you when you're gone.
Will you be the one?

Why

I look away every time.
I wish there where a way to make you mine.
I try to say the words to you.
But they just won't come out.
I try so hard, that I feel like I shout.
When I think of you my eyes begin to cry.
And I'm always left here wondering why?

The Feeling

Something just isn't right.
I can feel it inside.
I don't know if I lost it, or if it's just trying to hide.
All I know is that I need it, and that it has to come back.
Because I can't stand feeling so off track.
When it gets really late, and I'm already off the phone.
I'm lying in my bed, and I'm all alone.
I try to think of you, and what if you knew.
When I turn the lights out, and I close my eyes.
This feeling comes over me.
Like my life is full of lies.
But when the weekend comes, and I finally see you.
The feeling comes back, and my life is all true.

Out Of Sight

I had a bad day
Don't talk to me
I'm simply wishing that things where plain easy
I'm just gonna blur this shiat out
I'm gonna pretend that I'm real big and shout
As my heart breaks apart
You could care less
Because you're so tart
And you leave me here alone
I have nobody
Nobody but my home
I can just picture you
You standing there with your big mouth
Thinking that all people care
You think you're all though
But you are all words
And you bark but never dare to bite
Goodbye to you cause now I'm out of sight

Life

I'm here.
Your not.
I remembered.
You forgot.
Sometimes life can work these ways.
Sometimes life makes it miserable some days.
Sometimes when I get mad I break things and I cry.
Sometimes I roll myself up in a ball and wish that I could die.
Life can be evil and life can be mean.
Life can be good and cause a pleasant scene.
Life can be rewarding.
Or it can be discouraging at times.
You can be blamed for other people's crimes.
It can make you eat a lot and become really fat.
Or shave off all your hair, so you have to wear a hat.
No matter what, life is life.
And I would never want to end it, with the blade of a knife.

Anthony

I want your pants around your feet
I want to give it to you under the sheets
I like it when you say "I love you"
While your looking straight at me
You make me feel as if it's meant to be
But there's just one problem
I'm not yours
Outside my window it pours and pours
Like the tears from my eyes
All because I'm some other guy's
I can just imagine us together
A love that will last us forever
Why do things have to be this way
Maybe tomorrow will be a brand new day